why so emo=(

i feel so emo...why why why??...why was i so bored that i made myself emo...haih...im split between the two...the old and the new..the old is always there always has been and always will i think....but it feels so far away now=(...it feels wierd with the old but yet not accepted in the new...haih...what will i do=( the old loves me,the new has something i love=(...im sad...haih what should i do...split myself to two?...haih...i have to grow up...i cant always just stick with the old and not move on...haih......why are decisions so hard to be made=( haih!! emo ing sucks! makes me think too much!! haih..

Roller coaster?!?!

isnt this fun?...we fight every week...what de hack u one me to la????...be there for u all d time???...you think everthing u say is so nice?...very fun la now say all d bad side of urself??.. talking on the phone isnt the only way to solve things u know?!?!..FORCING it jus makes it worst!... yeah i know you feel like im not there for you...but wat de hack..im chatting with you..im not blame-ing u la...but jus...getting annoyed by you la..ur not bad or anything..u know it..i dont know la..never imagine i could fight with you till last week..and now it became a weekly thing?..how 'fun'. i know you love me and all..n i do too...but not everything needs to revolve around u when u get all emo...haiz....what am i to do... i got nothing else to say to you.. haiz...

ps...avril...help ur lil nephew out here...



im speechless now..ive said what i need to..theres nth more

-becks-

b-o-r-i-n-g thats all i can say

im bored...entertain me!..im jus crapping..ahaha...but..yes im bored...ahh!....how bored can a person be...isnt holidays suppose to be fun...how can this be boring..its d hols of my pre-u year...and im jus stoning once more...lik i always do..what de hack?..i dun enjoy being at home..im sure ill enjoy it when im out of home..but now im stuck at home..so i dun like home..its leaving me to rot or something..im bored..im sure u get the point by now u noe im bored...this is boring..ill stop crapping now and get someone to entertain me..but den ill still be bored..ive got nothing in my head to say..except..BORING=.=..haha..=)..

frustrations...more frustrations...what a nite!

so..yest nite was like a total hectic night...talked on the phone for like what....2-3 hours?...

-first time ever so long on the phone...EVER....
-first fight as well i think..could feel all d frustrations around..such bad timing for things to go wrong...worst of all..you had more problems all thrown at you at the same time!...family and all..
-first scolding from you...such a long lecture i had..more frustrations..
-first time hearing harsh words from your mouth..
-first for lots more la...so annoying la..ahhh..how to not be emo?!?!...

are we like totally over the fight now?..i dont know...you tell me...

you said it like i didnt care for you..didnt think bout you and didnt work on us...and all...
gues wat...I DID!...hearing those things felt like i wasted my effort i put into doing these things...you dont recognise it..ahhh......got to go off...shout out my frustrations..and get over it!~...ciaoz...


becky