why so emo=(

i feel so emo...why why why??...why was i so bored that i made myself emo...haih...im split between the two...the old and the new..the old is always there always has been and always will i think....but it feels so far away now=(...it feels wierd with the old but yet not accepted in the new...haih...what will i do=( the old loves me,the new has something i love=(...im sad...haih what should i do...split myself to two?...haih...i have to grow up...i cant always just stick with the old and not move on...haih......why are decisions so hard to be made=( haih!! emo ing sucks! makes me think too much!! haih..